searching for something

My religous teacher, Ustaz Sheikh, told us about a book he read where a farm boy travelled everywhere else only to later realize that what he was searching was close to him at home. Well, i can't recall wad the title was but my point is me and my fren experienced it!

We were searching everywhere else for that cool white SF65 i think. The Siemens 100% phone 100% camera but it was no where to be found. From JE to Woodlands to Yew Tee to Lot 1 and back to JE and then Jurong Point! But to no avail. Alas, Mr Z got his phone earlier today guess where? Close to home, at Tampines.. And at a cheaper price!

Well, i guess everything REALLY happens for a reason.

Makes me wonder about my life. What am i searching for in my life? Or more precisely, maybe whatever i am searching is right here? in my home? my family? Singapore?

Hmmm...

Fuzz

untitled

At work i've a couple of unfinished work to do. I stayed a while to wait for the CEO (Mr Arvind) to end his call before informing him about something but to my surprise he left early. I guess tommorrow i got quite a lot to do. Anyway earlier in the evening, an incident happened at work. Some disagreement between Ashit and Andrew. Voices were raised. Darn. Now i am more reluctant to approach Ashit for queries.

Went for religous class at Bugis by SHeik Mustaffa with the SMU students. It was a cool venue, a nice shophouse and we were all seated in on the floor with pretty cushions. I like the setting. The only major drawback is that it clashes with my Caderas Latinas practice. Though the earlier starts at 8pm and the latter at 9pm, it means that i can't really get the best of both world: having to leave halfway or join halfway.

Well, i made up my mind. I am not going to go for the religous classes cause i want to dedicate my time to Salsa. Furthermore i already commit myself to it even before informing my interest abt the religous classes. (it was initially supposed to be on tuesdays) Also, they would probably go through the techniques of prayers. And i am more interested in Islamic history, etc.

I thought of leaving the religous class halfway at 9 but the setting made me too shy to do so. furthermore it was quite interesting.

We talked abt the 4 pillars of Islam: how they may vary in details but have the same intention. A question that only set in was the earring issue. I always wanted to ask why guys can;t pierce their ears. If they can't do it because men are not supposed to dress like a woman, what abt the time factor of cultural change. I.e. time changes culture and now men wearing earrings are a norm and acceptable and does not equate them to being womanly. So using that argument men should now be allowed to wear earrings because earrings are now men's fashion item. An argument supporting this would also be that in the early times, or whatever time that is, what is acceptable or deemed to be accessories for men or woman are decided generally by people themselves. People contribute to culture. hence muslim men should be allowed to wear earrings as they are no longer meant for women. Most importantly, the point we should not forget that piercing itself can't be sinful in itself. (if it is, why and so why isnt it sinful to women?) It's different from tattoo where the makrings on the body is permanent and prevent one from truly cleaning themselves from foreign objects.

Anyway, basically the session was interesting and i flet it to be rude to leave halfway. So in the end, we ended at 1015. and my salsa class supposed to end at 11!! and i was at Bugis while the class is Clarke Quay. I tried nevertheless, thinking i could get the last half hr but to no avail. I arrived at Clarke Quay station at 15 before 11pm. Alas, i decided not to go and embarass myself. (i mean everyone would be asking, what the hell is this guy doing coming in for the last 10 to 15 minutes?!) Furthermore i doubt i can catch anything in that short time. I don;t think i was fickle. On the otherhand i realize that i am very self concious and care too much abt what people think about me- though i TRY to tell myself that i am unlike that! Haha... I lie, even to myself? Hmmm... maybe i got a bad case of self justification!

God Bless,
Fuzz

am i unfillial?

yesterday i did something bad.

despite my dad being warded in NUH i went to the first Salsa practice for SMU Convocation.

Here's in my shameless self-justification.
1) My dad's condition was okay
2) He fainted before
3) I gave him a call and asked how he were,
4) and told him that i can't make it
5) it WAS the first convocation practice and,
6) i wanted to make a good impression and,
7) I would be terrible if i miss the first one!
8) Hospitals depress me especially
9) the journey to the place will be filled with so much anxiety and importantly
10) I still LOVE my dad!

So NO. I am NOT unfillial just because i do not visit him on the day he was warded. And furthermore, i visited him today. Redemption? i am not sure. but i felt better.

Anyway, he will be discharged tommorrow. Yay!

God Bless,
Fuzz

head feels heavy

i'm not sure why my head feels heavy in the midst of the meeting earlier with HP. I think i had enough sleep yesterday. I am not sure whether it is rest related or whether i just don't like meetings. Maybe it was the taxi ride.

My dad fainted earlier in the morning and is currently under observation at the A&E, NUH. Perhaps it has got to do with it. Maybe i am, without knowing, affected by it. THen again, i always considered myself 'strong' and able to not be so affected by such things. Especially that this has happened before.

Maybe i just need more rest. Well, i thank god that he is okay. am sure he will get better, (just hope that he won't consume the wrong pills again!)

fuzz

Learning to Hip Hop & Raggae

I always had enjoyed performing. I think dancing in front of a crowd is a great challenge as i always got the jitters. Anxiety is indeed a nice feeling especially if one is able to manage it.

Just yesterday i mustered enough courage to expose myself yet again to something new- learning to dance hip hop/ raggae. I have to thank Zallie of course for accompanying me. :o)

My ex secondary schoolmate Faz, now known as Liyana, asked me whether i would be interested to perform for the NDP thank you party. So me and Zallie went for one of the rehearsals yesterday. It was a bit nerve wrecking since quite a lot of them turn up for the rehearsals. (according to Faz there was only supposed to be a few of them!) But it was cool. At least i got over the most difficult part- of getting to have to dance in front strangers.

I realize that i am not really a fast learner especially when it comes to copying hip hop steps. :p but then again i would say that it is very much attributed to me not being too comfortable dancing with strangers hence being to self concious. :p

On the whole it was fun. kinda get the 'ghetto' feeling. Especially practising at the Yew Tee MRT. A different kind of crowd that i usually would hang out with but they ARE a fun and funny bunch of people. Look forward for next sunday!

Talking abt dance, my current dilemma is whether i should dance for Salsa during convocation or Mlcc cause i just got a call from Alina and she said i am one of the 5 pairs chosen for Convo! Also whether i could possibly perform for both Band and MLCC for Smuve.

Right now, deep down, i want to perform for Band for Smuve as they are doing an anthem. ANd i want to perform for Salsa for convocation as its something new plus i've been performing for MLCC for the last 2 years already. My dilemma is that i think MLCC would prob need me and i don;t want them to think that i think MLCC is unimportant or that i dun prioritize them. They are such dear friends.

Hmm.. should i turn up for Salsa tommorrow for the Convo practices?

Fuzz

Bugis Adventure

Had an adventure at Bugis yesterday. Chilled out at a coffee joint next to the Ritz Apple Strudel in the early afternoon with Deen, Syahriel, Azrina, Noraini, Sophia and Yati and Heriza yesterday. We had some drinks but hunted for another joint after realizing that the place doesn't have any fried food.

After finding out that Es Teller was no longer around, we end up at Banquet at Raffles Hospital. Nice food. Deen left cause he got to help out his dad, Azrina left cause of her bf and Heriza left because of curfew?

So the four of us walked around to explore the rest ob Bugis. I was so trigger happy taking a lot of pictures and it felt so fun. Stopped by Malay Heritage Centre and took more pictures. We then chanced upon a mekeshift flea market at some forgettable street name but it was cool. Some interesting stuff. I thought of persuading Cheryl to sell her lovely earrings the 3rd sunday of next month! Anyway, bought a belated Silver/White brooch (supposedly Swarovski) at a steal (20 dollars)! {anyway she likes it}

Then we stopped by Starbucks at some business building. It was a nice quiet Starbucks. I think i should chill here more often and bring my date especially on weekends!! hehe. The most interesting thing we talked about was about our childhood!! Feels so nostalgic sharing our past with ya friends. Almost brought tears to my eyes. haaa..

Finally we explored Parkview Square. Its this gold and brown gothic looking building with Oscar like statues on top. All of us love the place! Everyone should take a look inside. The architecture is really unique. Superbly breath taking. And they have this rare wine cellar where the lady dressed as an angel would be hoisted up to retrieve the bottles. Way cool... I swear i want an internship or work there, lest whatever position i may get. And plus, the ambience is perfect for proposals! hehe. I totally love the place- too bad my camera was low on battery with more than a hundred shots taken earlier.

I think exploring such unfamiliar places are a great alternative to watching movies. Its so fun and lots of chance to explore not only the surroundings but ourselves!

Love,
Fuzz

Sypnosis

As before, i didn't manage to blog as often as i want to. Anyway, here are some updates of what had happened in my life since i last went 'shopping for office wear'....


MLCC Picnic @ Sentosa
This was really FUN!! I enjoyed myself playing so much sports: from volleyball to frisbee to circle games to beach soccer! hehe. And even better having shared it with fun friends! Would love to go and bask in the sun again!!


Internship
Well, the experience been great. I got to learn so much about the Ad & PR industry, especially the former: having to arrange to meet shortlisted agencies. The week goes by quite fast with the internship. So far so good though i kinda smell that i have to find work to do esp now that we are near to securing an agency. I'll probably come up with a report outlining the past marcom activities. Also come up with my own proposals. (i yet to shock everyone with my creative talent?! haha!) Its great having to look forward to work and meet 16 other SMU students. But i do dread waking up and reporting to work by 830am.. hehe.


Other
Hmm, another reason why the week goes by so quickly is because i am quite occupied through the week. Like Mondays' my floorball training. (i wouldnt really call it training cause its so fun still! and im still not that serious)

Thursdays are Salsa dance company trainings- way KOOL!! hehe. can't wait to perform esp now that we learn a new stunt. so super! Imagine flipping the lady with one hand so that she would be hanging mid way to the floor! wow rite?!

And fridays supposed to be band days.. have been missing band and band has been postponed a coupke of times too.. miss hearing me on the flute and playing in a band.


Daydreaming
I wanna go either KL or THailand for the hols!! Hmmm.. not sure with who though. Cause my sis and her bf decided not to go since my cousin backed out. And Izan and ziyah going to Bali 16th of June: and im not really keen on Bali or Indonesia of that matter. I wanna go KL to club again! or to Bangkok!! Think Deen and Abidah going there too but i don't wanna be a light bulb. Maybe i should venture by myself! it'll be way cool too eh? Plus i gotta do 'stuff'! hehe :p Miss JB btw.


Questions
Hmm.. should i give Fazlianah and dance co a visit. THey're doing hip hop! and performing for post NDP parade!! Plus faz asked me whether i wanna be her dance partner but i dun think im up to it.. and i am not really that comfortable with 'grinding'... esp with a fren!


Okay, till then. I am gonna meet up with Heriza and frens tommorrow at Bugis, again- just went with izan, deen and jiayh earlier, for a quasi farewell for her before she fly to aussie. I prob gonna scout for nice slippers and maybe a new top for work!! and socks!!! I'm gonna watch Sepet movie on my laptop now. And yes, i'm so happy i bought two great tees: brown Do Not Copy Me and black/gold Griffin!

Love,
Fuzz