tHunDERstorms in my heArT

I am finally seeing the sun in this gloomy term
finally feel a tinge of motivation and a spark of enthusiasm
which once i had in great abundance
oh, i do pray that such jouissance would once again radiate from me
and its energy infusing and spreading happiness once again
of witty humor, pleasant sarcasm and enjoyable antics

Resisted i tried but alas i succumbed to much negative energy,
of destructive habits and wallowing in self-pity and
feeling defeated, unmotivated and dissapointed
of prolonged feverish state and basking in my lazy days
Why. why do i feel and act that way
then i prayed for it to all go away.

Now the thunderstorms in my heart are finally fading away,
the aggravation, diminished by contentment, laughter and gratitude
happiness as my state is just a fog away
there will be similar days like these but who cares?
one will have to look forward and always be grateful for what we have
Look! the thunderstorms in my heart, it is finally lifted!
GOd Bless.

Thank God for happy friends, affectionate cats, the hilarious Simpsons, the magical Charmed, JB: my personal getaway space!

Fuzz

i am not myself

i am so not myself lately.

so unmotivated, unfocused, immoral, indifferent and unsociable.

its affecting my school especially. and i just dun seem to give a damn about assignments and deadlines. what is happening??


i need an inspiration. i need a new lease of life? i need to find myself again.

god bless our souls.

My flu

My terrible flu is still on. its been more that a week already! I think i should really see a doctor cause i can't stand my sore throat and bad bad cough.. and it will only be dryer during this fasting month. Well, at least my headache is gone-for now.

So the week has rather been quite draggy for me cause i'm sick. Thank god, i don't have any meetings scheduled in school for the weekend. i can finnally rest. (i.e catch up on my readings at a more leisurely pace)

I think fasting month is really great. It makes us value more what we use to take for granted. Damn, i need a muse! Okie, gotta go and be early for Band Prac!

Love,
Fuzz

Highlights of Week 8

Week 8 marks SMU's mid term break. Unlike what its name suggests, its actually a week of catching up on projects, revision and personal deadlines and assignments. I shall now give you some of the highlights of my termbreak which will officially end tommorrow.

Other than projects (both voluntary and not), my term break was rather happening: went for a Malay Heritage Trip organised by MLCC on wed, Sentosa Outing for Floorball, Johor Shopping Trip! It all pass by in a flash, with tommorrow being the last day of the break. Can u believe that i stayed in school twice for my projects! (yesterday and also mon)

The heritage trip was really fun, though i had my flu halfway thru prob because of the aircon. Anyway, the experience at the Malay Heritage Museum in SIngapore was great cause we didnt expect to be entertained my the Sri Warisan people! Imagine complete with welcoming music, dance, poems, music, demos and tryouts!! way cool! i actually learn a bit more about my own culture when i thought there isnt anything else thats interesting! KEWL eh?? We had an interesting visit at the privately own Bugis Museum at JB. We then had a seafood dinner at Tjg Piai- when there was even more reveleation by the museum owner about his very interesting life!

I dragged myself to Phase Off @ Sentosa cause i was really not feeling that well.. though i know that i MUST turn up no matter what cause i got so much stuff to bring, like really really lotsa food and stuff- all thanks to me not delegating em in time! maybe im just a contro freak eh>> haha doubt so.. BUT it was worth it! though i was really sick most of the time, felt feverish even! SMU Floorball is always worth it i guess.. though i am currently contemplating steeping down as Marcom Head, too mentally draining. We shall see..

ooh, Yesteday had my day alone in JB! - well not initially. But its a good thing too, Izan offered a lift up to JB, she was heading there for lunch with "missy"! so i joined em! i windowed shop but didnt buy anything.. can't decide what to buy with the mere 100RM. haha. ;p

I am now gonna do RESEARCH for my NPD interim proj presentation which is worth about 35%!!! lucks to me man. (gotta proj meeting tmrw at 9am!)

cheers,
Fuzz

What Happened Since

It's been quite a while since my last entry hence what happened since.

Maybe i shall relate to you what happened in an irritating, reverse chronological order? haha. yup, here goes!

MON
I am in school now and on the quest to complete individual parts for 2 of my projects before meeting tommorrow. Had dinner at lovely Sofra Restaurant with Deen's OBS group. (which ironically HE was absent for instead of me, despite my dire financial situation!) Had Marketing Research project meeting in school. Had in depth interviews with secondary school students at KAP MacDonald's. Mom said she would give me $200 cash for my present!! Yay!! Woke up.

SUN OCT 3
Enjoyed a lovely day of solitude. Felt recharged. Watched Gilmore Girls- can feel for her (she dropped a course in Yale!) Tried Levis 505 Jeans which was on sale and waist size 33 is way cool esp at only $65.99!! Probably buying it soon! Went window shopping around Jurong Point. Had a great cool haricut- again- for a mere $10!!! Wow! Its my Birthday- i am 23 years old!!!!!

SAT
(hmmm.. can someone remind me what happened?? It seems that this part of my memory is removed. Sorta like the lobotomy in "The Eternal SUnshine of the Spotless Mind" when Kate Winslet & Jim Carrey had their memories removed so that they can forget about each other.. haha)

FRI
Had dinner at Suntec. Skipped band- felt guilty. Dilemma. Should i skip? Birthday surprise by Floorball peeps in CR 6!!! hehe. Faith Talks. MR meeting. Hand in Drop form for BP. Got his signature. Met Prof Wu. Printed Drop form.

THUR
Decided to drop, withdraw from Business Processes so that the expected bad grade won't pull down my GPA. screwed up Mid term- big time!!! Took BP mid term paper. Studied for BP paper.



Fuzz